Sometimes I don't know when to push myself and when to stop. I'm pretty sure this endless cycle of "should I or shouldn't I" has lead me to my current predicament, which includes hobbling down stairs until about 12pm when my feet, ankles and calves have loosened up to the point of bending so that I can successfully traverse the various stories of my office without looking like I'm crippled.
I finally decided to go back to the podiatrist and see if an orthotic might help my Achilles tendon problems. I have been stretching, and doing heel raise/lowering exercises, in addition to my other strength routines and mobility exercises, but that doesn't seem to be helping. I bought an ankle ice boot to use after I exercise vigorously (i.e.: Cross Fit) to help reduce inflammation, but I am only marginally sure that will help. I hope I don't need some sort of surgery, as I feel like I am hitting my stride and need to keep going down this path or I'm going to go crazy.
I was told by a long time Cross Fitter that feeling like your joints are revolting against you is normal and that things will get better. "You're in it for the long haul" he said, but I can't help but feel frustrated. This isn't the occasional knee or shoulder twinge. This is every day, and its painful. I guess I need to admit when I'm beaten and do my best to prevent it from getting the best of me, but I can't help feeling like I am trapped in my own body.
I don't act, exercise, eat or feel like I'm in an obese body. I never have, and now I feel like my physical prowess, once again, is mismatched to my body type. I don't see a difference in the way my body is composed since I've started Cross Fit. I thought I did, but this recent round of frustration has made me doubt the progress I thought I saw. And it makes me scared that I am not going to be able to continue this activity that I love because my body isn't capable of what my mind knows I can do.
Man, your mind is one cruel mistress.
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